This week's weigh in report almost didn't happen. I've been avoiding it all day. Not because it's all that bad, but because it's like a repeat of the past couple of months. But I do want to have a record of my weight so I can see the changes when/if they happen.
This week's weigh in: 196.6
Same ol' same ol'...and quiet honestly I'm sick of seeing this stupid number on the scale. I've been at 30 pounds lost for so long I'm beginning to think I will weigh this for the rest of my life. Although in all honesty I know if that is the case my life will be MUCH shorter than it should/could be. I really have no one to blame but myself. I've been suffering from a bout of depression the past month or two. I've taken a break from exercising and I know that's not helping matters. I've been eating snacks late at night instead of exercising. I know it all has to stop. I know I need to get my butt in gear and do what is necessary to kick the depression in the rear but sometimes it is easier said than done, ya know??
I watched The Biggest Loser last night and was so sad to see Courtney get eliminated BUT as I watched I realized that even the people on Biggest Loser go through slumps where they aren't losing much weight and quite honestly it made me feel better to some degree. The only problem is I don't know what to do to bust past this...seeing her "after Ranch" shots shows that she left the ranch and started losing again so I know it can be done but I want to know HOW?? I know for a fact I need to start moving my body again...it will help with my depression and it will help me "feel" better. I will probably get over my underlying stomach illness and back pains, too if I am exercising. I also know that I can't sit at my computer and "veg" out for hours instead of being productive but lately all I "feel" like doing is forgetting all the crap going on in my world and read what's going on elsewhere. I've been going to bed too late and not sleeping well so that is making it harder to lose weight as well.
Gotta turn this around and get moving in the right direction....Now to put this into practice. I've come too far to stop now!! I could use some extra motivation, I think!!
***On a side note: My best friend with breast cancer has undergone chemo treatments and will have surgery next week probably. She has much to consider over the next 5 days and she (I) would appreciate your prayers as she makes the "right" decisions for her and her family. I will probably be helping her out a bit more over the next few weeks so that will make me feel like I'm doing something productive to help her. Her mom is still here, too, helping out so that is a huge blessing but she has an 8 year old son and a 19 year old son who will need some extra TLC (and prayers).
I will be there or them as much as I can...