Friday, July 24, 2009
My Baby Is Nineteen Years Old!!
I think I'm going to cry!! What happened to my little, helpless newborn baby?? That Kid was due on July 8, but was in no hurry to be born. My doctor decided 2 weeks late for my first born child was long enough to wait and torture my ribs...he was a kicker and I had bruises on my ribs for a couple of weeks even after he was born. So the doctor told me to come to the hospital in the wee hours of Tuesday, July 24 and we would induce labor and then I would FINALLY get to hold this little baby in my arms. He was born later that afternoon at 5:50 p.m. He shocked us all a little bit by nearly being born before we even knew what hit us! But I was one happy momma at 5:50 p.m. July 24, 1990. And truth be told, I'm still a happy momma 19 years later! I love to look at him and hold him close...but he doesn't like to be close to me anymore, so I just take what I can get!!
I was excited, nervous, and anxious all at the same time. Was I ready to be a mom? Did I have what it would take to raise a baby? Would I be able to nurse him the way I wanted to? The answer to all these questions is a resounding YES! I managed to nurse him till he was 19 months old. I managed to raise him into a (usually) well- adjusted, well-behaved young man. I was definitely ready to be a mom....and I have to say I LOVE being a mom, most days. There have been days when I would rather not have to deal with the trials that this child has sent my way, but I am so glad that God has blessed me with him.
That Kid has taught me how to love unconditionally. He has taught me that I have things in my life I need to work on. He has taught me to put the little things aside and take time for the BIG things...concentrate on the future as well as the here and now. He has also taught me --(maybe not consciencely) to have MORE PATIENCE than I ever thought possible! He has also taught me to "let go and Let God".
I spent all of his childhood trying to teach him things, (since I homeschooled him) and now as it turns out I was probably taught just as much as he was during this time. He is preparing to move out and on -- to college -- at a private Christian college and I think I am ready and I know he is ready!! I pray That Kid will mature and find his way while he is in college there. I also pray that he remembers I will always love him... no matter what troubles or tribulations come his way!
I still owe him a graduation tribute...but things have been crazy this summer and I have struggled to get it into words so I don't have it done yet, but I hope to get it done soon! Did you know it is hard to write something about someone you have literally known their whole life??!!
So I will leave you with my weepy birthday wishes...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!! I LOVE YOU!!